Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.Martin Luther King, Jr.
When I made the decision to start breastfeeding I did not realize what a challenge it would be. With Tristen I supplemented with formula to try and help him sleep better, which did not work. Then we went on vacation and I was too embarrassed to feed in front of people so I kept giving formula bottles and not pumping. By the time I got home my milk was almost gone. I tried pumping and feeding all day and it just was not coming back so I gave up and we fed Tristen formula. Although I felt horrible about it, it was nice to know how much he was eating and Shane could help. I guess you can say I kinda got spoiled by it.
This time around I was determined not to make the same mistakes. We supplemented with formula in the beginning before my milk came in. I let Connor try and eat for an hour and then fed him formula so I was letting him do his job and bring my milk in. That is the only formula he has ever had and I am very proud of that.
Now when he is gassy or super fussy it is a huge guessing game..What did I eat...What is wrong with him...Is he not eating enough...Am I not making enough. It is alot more stress than I realized. Not know how much he is getting is a constant concern and it drives me a little batty. Having to trust my instinct and knowing when my child is full is a little stressful. I am not sure if it is a control thing or what but I hate that part of breast feeding.
As easy as it would be to just say I give up and just give him formula. I know I am doing what is best for my child. Providing him the best nutrition for him. I am also really addicted to it, I love knowing that no matter what I can care for my child. He will always have food with me and having that special bond with him is something I really didn't have with Tristen.
Breastfeeding has been my biggest challenge but it has also been my biggest reward. Having faith is hard to do but when you let go and have faith everything always seems to work out
When I made the decision to start breastfeeding I did not realize what a challenge it would be. With Tristen I supplemented with formula to try and help him sleep better, which did not work. Then we went on vacation and I was too embarrassed to feed in front of people so I kept giving formula bottles and not pumping. By the time I got home my milk was almost gone. I tried pumping and feeding all day and it just was not coming back so I gave up and we fed Tristen formula. Although I felt horrible about it, it was nice to know how much he was eating and Shane could help. I guess you can say I kinda got spoiled by it.
This time around I was determined not to make the same mistakes. We supplemented with formula in the beginning before my milk came in. I let Connor try and eat for an hour and then fed him formula so I was letting him do his job and bring my milk in. That is the only formula he has ever had and I am very proud of that.
Now when he is gassy or super fussy it is a huge guessing game..What did I eat...What is wrong with him...Is he not eating enough...Am I not making enough. It is alot more stress than I realized. Not know how much he is getting is a constant concern and it drives me a little batty. Having to trust my instinct and knowing when my child is full is a little stressful. I am not sure if it is a control thing or what but I hate that part of breast feeding.
As easy as it would be to just say I give up and just give him formula. I know I am doing what is best for my child. Providing him the best nutrition for him. I am also really addicted to it, I love knowing that no matter what I can care for my child. He will always have food with me and having that special bond with him is something I really didn't have with Tristen.
Breastfeeding has been my biggest challenge but it has also been my biggest reward. Having faith is hard to do but when you let go and have faith everything always seems to work out
Keep it up girl! If I hadn't been on so many medications because of my kidney failure I would have breastfed Sammy. I can only imagine the bond it must create between baby and mom.
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