Venting

Today I am realizing how important venting is when you're a mom. I usually keep it all in and either forget why I was frustrated or swallow all the frustration and blow up later.

Today pushed me over the edge. After spending 3 weeks in Atlanta for the holidays the 4 of use boarded a 5 hour flight home, we barley survived and made it home frustrated and tired. I just went to bed early and never dealt with my frustration.

Then this morning the chaos begins. Tristen woke up with a face full of bumps. I thought maybe it was hives from crying so hard and didn't think much of it. As the morning continued quietly Tristen  pulled out a full sippy of milk and juice he hid before our trip making the house smell like rotten milk and fermented juice. After seeing the bumps on Tristens face still there at 10am I thought maybe something in his bed was biting him (a spider) After throwing the sheets over the railing I picked up his mattress  to get the bed skirt off and as I lifted the skirt I saw all the bed bugs!!! I ran down stairs to throw the sheets into the wash so the bugs did not spread. I called Terminix and set up an appointment for 2-4, At 4 I called them to see if they were running late...Nope they did not set my appointment. I just lost it. I had held all my frustration from the travel in and today's events just pushed me over the edge. I was  a wreck and I could see my temperament rubbing off on Tristen and Connor. Connor just cried the entire time he ate and Tristen was really concerned kept checking on me, throwing tantrums to get my attention and crying himself. After the boys were in bed I had time to think about what the situation really was and realized that if I had just vented I would not have taken it out on my kids.

As a mom we want to do it all and when we cannot we just beat ourselves up and this in turn does not help our children or spouses. It's so important that we are in touch with what is really making us upset and having a person you can just vent to. Get out all that emotion so you can be a good mother, wife and friend. I feel much better once I realize that in the big scheme of things bed bugs is not a big deal and its a lot easier to deal with that many other issues that could have went wrong. My kids are happy and healthy and that's all that really matters.