I wonder....

I always see these put together moms with well behaved super smart kids and I wonder...how the heck to do they do it. I feel like I jumped on a treadmill at full speed and can't get my feet under me to get into my stride. I see them with makeup on, nice clothes, kids look happy and well behaved and I have on jeans and a t-shirt, hair in a pony possibly some powder but never full make up and one of my kids is usually crying.

I am sure some of my self doubt is playing into this, but it feels like they have some magical secret with being the "Perfect" mom and I on the other hand am still in survival mode. We take each day as it comes and hope we all survive. Now I know my kids are happy, healthy and get everything they need. But I always look at those moms and wish I knew the secret. They seem so calm and have it all together.

When I think about adding one more to the mix I start to have a panic attack...3 under 30 months....wow. How am I going to survive, how am I going to be that "perfect" mom. I don't ever worry about having enough love to give to 3 babies because I think I have enough for LOTS more. Its my patience and sanity I worry about LOL I keep trying to remind myself people do it all the time. My kids will get all the education they need from me, I will have time for each of them and its not that important if I have make up on.